Princess Of China;

It's feels like its been forever since we've looked at each other in the eye, with glances that are so full of grace, overshadowing the tendency of the long strained animosity that might blow up anytime. 

And I honesty tried to pull myself up together over tr last few months, to put a fortress within my heart to guard it from the very one thing that destroyed me, from a foe that I know so well as vulnerability. 

But no matter how far I run, how deep I try to hide, how strong a face I paint on my face, my heart eventually catches up, reminding me of every little memory left of you that's engraved in my mind and soul. 

And it's the fear that we might end up like how every other normal ex couple would, strangers. This is killing me, because I'm still trying to fight for this, to pull us away from that very path which I can already imagined it to be, the both of walking pass each other without any form of recognition. This is what that's killing me darling, because I'm not ready for that to happen yet, and I don't know how to make you see it. 

And this is the story of how a little boy once fell for the girl of his dreams, and has been living in memory lane every since. 

And I'd want to have you know that I'll always be here for you, whether you see it or not, because that's what love does to one person, to never give up on something that constructs their world. 

I still cherish you, and I'll always be here, munchkins, no matter how hard you try to push me away,  I'll always be right here, hoping for the day where you'd learn to see that there is a boy in this world who's never given up on you, that it is possible or a boy to love a girl that much, and for the day you'd finally open up that gracious heart of yours to the possibilities again, if you ever do.

Because I'm still wishing that you'd tear down the walls of your heart, just so that we could talk a little more, know a little more, and maybe, just maybe then, we'll learn to appreciate each other a little more. 

Because if I could fly up to the surface just to start it all over again, I would. I just need you to see this with an open heart, an open mind, and with and open soul. 

Come tomorrow, I know I'll be wishing that you're right next to me when coldplay plays fix you.

Sing me to sleep tonight, love. 

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Like a river to a raindrop,

I've lost a friend. 

Wishbone;

Because until today, I'm still trying like how I did when I first met you.

I know you care, I see in it the way that you stare.

I've never known a winter so cold.

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I hope that it was always there.

This Is Love;

Because my mind drifts alongside with the whispers of the dull, dark, crispy wind tonight, back to a place where the sun shined brighter, radiating in its full glory, and everything seemed sweeter than ever.

That very point in time where it felt like love did indeed conquered all, that point in time where we laughed genuinely with our hearts, and enjoyed every moment spent together. That point in time where my life was filled with you, just you, and nothing but you.

I can't stop thinking about you tonight. I can't stop thinking what life would've been for us had we stuck together, side by side, through it all. I could only imagine the amount of joy we would have tasted, the amount of love we would have encountered, and the amount of memories we would've collected together.

Because behind all this little games, I hope that you still care, like how I still care for you.

I miss you, with all my heart, my soul, and my very being, and I just need you to see this. So cling on to me, like the last breathe you would breath.

More than he ever do, more than he ever will.

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This time, we'll fade out tonight.

Home Is In Your Eyes;

Never ever put up with someone who's reckless with your heart.

Why put yourself in such a low position to run back to the person who's proven to have destroyed your heart over and over again?

Wake up munchkins, you deserve so much more.

Maybe in due time, you'd realize all of this, and I pray that you will because the ones that really love you are the ones that would never hurt you.

There is more to this, I know.

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Love, Live, Lust.

The Left Side Of Everywhere;

Because it's never easy to look at the girl you love in her eyes, knowing that her heart belongs with someone else.

Strength.

I loved you in the best way possible, and I still do.

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M.

With God's Grace, Amen;

It's funny to be reminded that the way you write for him now, was how you used to write for me.

And it's even funnier to see how you write for him now, is exactly the way I write my posts for you.

I'm not angry, I've grown too tired to be angry. Its just that it still haunts me, every piece of memory left of you.

But worst of it all, you write everything with no sense of remorse, like going behind my back was part of your plan.

Grace.

And until today, I still don't know why I miss you.

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Come down from your towers.

Little Places, Little Faces;

I can almost tell what you want, you don't want to be alone.

Well, nobody wants to, neither do I.

I miss all those times we had, with you, with our friends and it tears me apart to see what we've all become now.

Because no matter what, I'd always have that place for you in my heart.

From lovers to strangers, from dust to ashes.

I never thought that one could miss another this much. What amplifies it is the fact that there is no avenue to let it all out.k

We called it too early, but maybe one day we'll both feel the same again.

Changes, changes.

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I'm not the best you could've attained,

but I'd try anyway.