The Woodlands National Anthem;

You said hello, shook my hand with my hair flipped down and that was all it took for me to scream I love you from the deepest darkest space in my heart.

Yes, I still remember every single moment of it. How the air was so crisp that night, the way you stood, the clothes you wore, the sound of your voice, the touch of your hands.

And I dont think I can ever forget this, because honestly, I never knew that, that was going to be the start of the happiest days of my life.

If you're still reading this, hold your heart up high, and I promise you that I'll be there with you through it all, through the good, the bad, and every little space in between.

I want you, I want us, and I'd do it all over again.

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When we bleed, we bleed the same.

Hold That Violent Kiss;

Because every time 'The One That Got Away' comes on the stereo, I wish that somehow time would work it magic and suck us back into a week ago. Just simply because I wish you were right next to me in the passenger seat and I would send you little glances that would make this noble heart warm.

I should've told and showed you what you meant to me, how you were every part of me that I cannot afford to lose.

But now I pay the price.

So let me hold you, and hold you so much more closer than ever, just like we first did on that very night when we watched crime watch together.

I miss you Minsey Massacre, so much more than a thousand suns lit up together, and somewhere deep down inside, I hope that there's a part of you that feels the same.

 People will change, and times are constantly rearranging, but you've always had me screaming I love you from the start, just remember that, always and I hope you'll see this too.

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We'd keep all our promises,

be us against the world.

Blood For Wild Blood;

Because he's still lost inside, just as lost as a boy would be for the girl he aches and longs for.

 Ever since that night, I have this constant feeling that my heart is urging to rip itself off my chest, just to be an inch closer to yours.

I can't sleep without thinking about you, I can't help but to think about how you are when I first open my eyes in the morning, I can't help but wish that you are in the passenger seat whenever I drive, just so that I can look at you from time to time, I can't help but to wish that I could sing to you whenever Adele comes on the radio, I can't help but wish you were here whenever I'm in Asia Cafe, I can't help but wish to hold you hand every time you were walking infront of me.

And I'd die to steal time to rewind to that very moment again, just to see that genuine smile of yours because I still want to, and not ashamed off show the world that you're my queen.

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue, I'd go crawling down the afternoon, but I'd never ever do you wrong.

Just 6 and a half more weeks, so open up, and let me take you to neverneverland.

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But this darkness has a hunger,
it offers blood for wild blood.

Smile Like You Mean It;

Watching you sleep on skype tonight, just made me realized how much I' actually really miss you too.

Imissyousofuckingmuchit'dhurtswheneverIthinkaboutyou.

Your voice, your smell, your touch, it all still lingers around me, all the time.

But you know what they say, if it doesnt hurt, then it wouldn't be real.

I'm not leaving, I'm not going anywhere, I'm right here.

I love you to death, Lee Min Yen, and that's one thing from me that no one else would ever have.

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I love you, and I don't know if you do,

but I hope that you do too.

Us Vs Them;

'I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, and someone to cuddle up with during a movie on the couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Talk about dreams, make dreams. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you're having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes and not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think 'this might make my girl smile' as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he's got and that guy is none other than, Julian Loh Wen-Zhi.

I love you forever and always and forever and always and forever and always and forever and always and forever and always and forever and always and forever and always, 

YOUR MINSEY MASSACRE BABY GIRL.'

Because I was looking through our wall posts to each other and this caught my heart. I don't know if it'll catch yours, but it certainly did catch mine.

I miss the times we had, the plans we made, the things we had so very wanted to look forward too together.

I'd still do all of them with you, if you're up for it. I want to show the world that you're still my queen, and nothing is going to ever change that perception.

I've whispered I love you in many different ways, and I mean every single one of them.

Listen, just listen.

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Hope, dangles on a string,
like slow spinning redemption.

Lover;

I just needed you to see that I would do wonders just to warm your heart up.

I just needed you to see that I would want to fight for you now, in every single way.

I just needed you to see that I still have faith in you, in us and I hope that you would still have that too.

I just needed you to see that you've moved mountains in my heart.

I just needed you to know that you're everything I've prayed for, every single night before I sleep since september.

I just needed you to see that I'd still hold you close to me, and I'd love you, no matter what, no matter when.

This is my promise, my oath, and my word to you, Rhyannae Santoso Lee Min Yen.

Because I still look at this picture every night before I sleep, and smile to know that I lost my heart to someone like you.

And it's hurting more than ever tonight.

I've been waiting for that second chance, and I always will be, be it now, or a 1000 years, I'll wait.

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Up in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep.

Like Crazy;

And because, I've never felt this vulnerable ever before.

'I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t, I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.'

Because this quote hit me when I read it, they are the words that I never had the guts to sing to you, face to face.

I've never stopped caring for you through all these years, through all these memories, just simply because you have beautiful heart, and I'll be here for you through it all.

 I love you more than ever before tonight.

For you, for me, for us, and for everything we'll ever conquer together, so come back, back to me, back to where the mountains meet the sea.

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You'll still be beautiful then,

bless your beautiful heart