To These Songs That We Sing;

Two days to a new year, two days just start fresh again.


....... just because I still miss you.

Words like violence, break the silence.

Kiss With A Fist;

It's almost a year.

Linger.

You sang me spanish lullabies.

Roller Disco Dreams;

This is it, change, hopefully.

Off in the night when you live it up,
I'm off to sleep.

You're All Fired Up;

There are just times whereby you feel that you've by dejected by the world.


When you wish that time doesn't move on a rolling basis but on a basis where you can push the pause button when things are at its best. Imy.

Run neon tiger, you have your heart on your mind.

Punchline 101;

I hate the fact that I'm resistant to change.

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I'd always prefer thing to stay as it is, because I feel that life goes on too fast, that we can't seem to grasp every single moment in such a short amount of time.

Life's like a magic 8 ball. Sometimes you get answers that you want to see and sometimes you get answers that you least expect. And its when you get those answers that you want, you'd resist in every way to shake that ball again, because that particular answers your current question that's ficking in your mind.

And I guess, its when that certain moment passes through your life. You'd wish that a stop button to press on so that you could be in that feel good drag as long as you can.

And I guess, really that's why I haven't really moved on with life because I'm still stuck in that very spot where I feel most secured and least vulnerable, though it's somewhere where I should have let go off, from the very start.

I can see my future in a wedding dress.

I Was Told That My Soul Is Old;

Joyeux anniversaire, ma'am.

Everything that matters, breaks in two.

Save Me, Save You;

This is an update.

There you go, Nadira Aqilah ;D.

The Beatles or The Rolling Stones;

After all this is gone, who'd you rather be?

I can still feel you in my bones.

Spill my guts on the wheel.

Have Heart, My Dear;

This is it. This is now.

So long, farewell.

Light Up, Light Up;

To you,

Things may not have worked out, unpleasant, in every aspect for the past few months.

Nonetheless, like it or not, you did pass through my life and without a doubt, is a blessing. I believe this statement applies not only to me, but to many other whom know you and know you. I can safely say that when things were good, you've been nothing but a good friend, someone whom could be counted on, someone who would be there to listen to every single problem, someone with great patience, though I know I'm in no position to say this. I may have not known you long enough or well enough, but I would like to express both my gratitude, for everything that you've done in the past, from tolerating my lousy childish behavior to hearing me out when I needed to talk, and my sincere apologies. I'm sorry for my immaturity, for bringing nothing but pain for the past few months, and also probably another 19485795 things that I might have left out.

Therefore, put aside all the negativity and hatred. If you're reading this, I sincerely wish you all the best in life, and I pray that you'll have a wonderful time in Canada, bringing joy to the people you know, because I know you did bring joy to mine. Take care, god bless and goodbye.

You will be missed.

I'll sing it one last time for you,
And then we really have to go.

This Is A Routined Riot;

Hello world, this is the start of something new :).

Come closer, listen to the words I lay.

One, Twenty-One Guns;

'Believe that dreams do come true everyday, because they do'

- Lucas Scott.

Because no matter how bad things are in life, there is, and will be, I believe, another side to it.

And really, the only way you can buy that ending, is through ;

Faith.

Because you wear your religion, like a war sweater.

A Penny For Your Thoughts;

The big Q: Canada or Australia?

I need answers.

I'd rather waste my life pretending,

than have to forget you for one whole minute.

Paper dreams, honey;

Because there are two sides to every fairytale.

Life's too short to be filled with doubt and sorrows.

There are 6 billion souls out there, wanting to live the live we have now, therefore cherish it.

Because for all you know, one single piece of news, might just take it all away.

It amazes me, how come one can the way you live your life, forever.
Something must have really gotten into me tonight.

You fill in this part of the post, this time.

Mothership Q;

Singapore was rather okay, good food, great people, good deals, good late night talks, good rockband 2 sessions, good Pras-vs-Andrew fifa moments, good orchard road walks, good sentosa beach walks, and of course, all in all, it was good that most of us got together :).


There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I dont know how.

And when your heart begins to bleed,

you're dead, and dead indeed.

Speed Up Your Breathing;

Because 10 years from now, I still wanna see everyone, us being close, being who we are now (:

Aqil, Jaws, Wani, Niro, Dhanraj, Daniel, Wei-Lin, Nique, Aryan, Yusur, Pras, Aaron, Aida, Tiya.

You guys have been a blessing, a priceless blessing.

How many special people change?

Dont Forget Your Yellow Bird;

Yesterday, was indeed one of the best nights, ever had.

Though yes, most of us are going to embark on different paths of life from now onwards, but one's thing for sure,

What we have now, this group of friends, will last because we're just cool like that :).

And right now, I only pray to God for 2 wishes;

1. Get rid of this screwed up asthma.

2. To gain that one friend back, that I've lost.

Fuh, this has got to the longest post so far.

Baby, season's change and people don't.

I'm Going Back To 505;

Because all I can do now is just look at you, and tell myself that you were a blessing in my life.

We all need our comfort zone, once in a while.

J for Jackass.

Mama;

I'm sorry, mom, for now, for everything.

With me white eyes, I've seen worlds that don't belong.

6789998212;

As much as it sounds that I shouldn't be, I still care, I do.

You could be happy, I hope you are.

Because I want to be too.

Last year's wishes, are this year's apologies.

You Could Be Happy;

Because one year ago, everything seems so perfect

One year after, I'm wishing that things would get better.

Tuh-wel-eff.

We're losing my favourite game.

Sunsets Over Monroeville;

Listen to Snow Patrol - You Could Be Happy, it'll make you think about life all over again.

Things don't have to be this way, and I'll say I'm sorry again, for the past, and present.

There goes two hearts in two weeks.

Words On Replay;

Sorry, if this will help the situation in any way

Never wear your heart on your sleeve.

Combat Baby, Combat;

"Would it be okay, would it be okay,

If I took your breath away,

You had me at hello."

Because despite everything that's been happening,
this phrase still catches my mind everytime it plays in the playlist.

Say yes, and pull the trigger.

Romeo's Bleeding, Can't You See;

Today was simply just, wonderful. Getting everyone to go out, in a big group.

Thanks for everything, guys.

Oh, she taste's like you, only sweeter.

Cut ties, with all the lies that you've been living in.

20 Ways To See The World;

Its already Eee Leh Vern, 11th. It just came through my mind.

On the brighter note,

Monash and Melbourne Uni, FTW!

I'm two-quarters and a heart down.

Oh Darling, Who Needs Love;

I need your grace, to read my lips.
I want to be able to talk to you, again.

You hollow out my hungry eyes.

(:

Maybe, R. (:

Maybe, you're going to be one that saves me.

For All These Times Son, For All These Times;

And for some reasons, I'm just scared to find out the truth, about the whole thing.



To You; Ngo chan hai hou kua chi lei.

So this is the last time, that I'd hold your hand.

Come One, Come All;

6 hours is all it is that separates now from the most exciting ICPU event of the year, Hear Us Out 2 :).

Whats wrong with the world, mama?

Oh, I'm Just Waiting Till The Shine Gets Off;

This weekend has got to be one of the better ones for this year so far.

Thought about things, set my priorities right, and it definitely taught me to look at things from different perspectives.

I want this mindset to last.

You've been appearing, for three days in a row now.

Truth be told, I'm lying.

Death To All His Friends;

And I sit and wonder, what have I done wrong, this time around?

I just hope for things to get better, if it will.

All these details in a fabric, they make you happy.

Boy In A Magazine;

From now onwards, I'll start fresh.

I'll start as someone,

NEW.

Think twice, your lover is an actress.

Jasmine Loh Xue-Zheng;

20 years ago, our family was blessed with a beautiful daughter, whom we all love so dearly.

20 years later, all I have left, is your bed, your dolls, and pictures of you.

You've been a blessing to my life. I know that you're smiling down from heaven now, watching my back. And only God knows, how much I've missed you throughout these years. I love you.

Happy Birthday Jasmine Loh Xue-Zheng,

Sister.

Meet me in outer space.

Look At Ze Stars;

Phew, for once. I feel, free (:

N.K;

You proved me wrong, just as when I thought when there was someone whom I can trust.

Your secrecy that surmise your cries.

Boom Chak Chak Boom Chak;

Two words to describe Jason Mraz's concert.

BLOODY HELL AWESOME!

From the lighting, to the crowd and music, everything just fitted so well together.

And I'm glad we didn't fight as much, today.

'Dont let your mind prevent you from having fun' - Jason Mraz.

Game Over;

I give up, you win.

I am sorry for saying things I should not have said. Forgive me for I am not very good with words.

All I hope for is that we'll put the past behind, not repeat our mistakes, and hopefully, be friends again.

Vedera;

Things are getting better, with some loop holes here and there.

I've wasted almost three months, and from now onwards, life in college will be much more fun.

There are no sad endings in every fairytale, its just how we look at it.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.

All These Words In A Barrel;

It just makes me think, after everything that has happened, whether is it even worth to think off, worth of worrying, and worth saving this screwed up 'friendship', though I must admit, I miss it.

I pray that only time would end this misery, because all that can possibly be done, has been done. 

Cheerios and take care.

The world still spins, when you're not around.

210209;

Because this 21st seem so blue.

What's in your head, zombie?

Karma Police;

I'm not being weird, I just miss you like hell. Though I know that you wont feel this way.

And I guess, we are really who we were when. I've changed for myself, for the better, and I feel good about it. But most of all, all I really want is that you'll give me one more opportunity to let me work to gain your trust back in me, to let me take care of you this time around, for one more time, when you feel that the time is right.

Me fatlas tu.

Date With The Night;

Stop, stop widening the gap, just stop.

This heart still aches. Fuck.

Send my regards to love and hope, they always worked so well.

21;

'8'.

I wish I am your favourite boy.

Before you go, can you read my mind.

Hush;

It hurts, it really does.

As of this week, I'm going to stop smoking and I mean it, just watch me.

You colour my eyes red.

120109;

Its been almost 5 days, and it feels like forever. I wont say a thing, but I'll keep a little faith, because really, thats all I have left :). Though I may not show it, But I still do care for you, alot.

I need to change, I need to study lah! aiyoooo

Nabeel, I miss you like fuck, We miss you like fuck

Hallelujah;

I had the worst asthma attack ever today, that got me rushed to Glenneagles.

So kiss me and smile for me

Breath In For Luck;

College wasn't fun at all, after all.

Because I still want to be the one that kisses you in the morning and say I love you,

Because I still want to be the one that holds your hand and walks you up the stairs every morning, together with our lame jokes,

Because I still want to be the one who plays pool with you, though we have never done it so often anymore,

Because I still want to be the one that waits for you for lunch everyday at 1 p.m,

Because I still want to be the one that would take the train up to Kelana Jaya just to be with you,

Because I still want to be the one who has funny subway lunches with you,

Because I still want to be the one that you write post its notes to,

Because I still want to be the one that makes loud burps and see you go ' aiyoooooo ',

Because I still want to be the one that calls you every night before you go to bed,

Because I still want to be the one that looks forwards to coming to college because I know I'll get to be with you for another day longer,

Because I still want to be the one that would just hug you and kiss you at random times,

Because I still want to be the one to say that I love you.

Because you make julian, be julian.

But then again, I don't wanna to be the reason behind all your sorrows. 

You've definitely changed my life. I don't even think that saying thank you would be enough. You've shown me what it feels like to be in love after a very long time, and I guess, that's why this is so hard. Days after all, is really just another countable item. I've spent 17 years living alone and its time to put a stop to it. Life's too short, like they say and I guess that I should cherish the people around me.  Take your time, 2 months, 5 months, 1 year, 10 years, or even 25 years, I will always be here if you need me because nothing can ever replace the happiness, peace, joy, love, comfort and memories that you give me when I am with you. 

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

January Rush;

For the past 17 years of my life, I've never felt so excited about school. I guess you just get that rush whenever you know that you're going to spend the next 6 months with crazyheads.

So here's to a better last semester! :). 

I've given all my oxygen, So let the flames begin.

Drink Up Baby Doll;

The week started off pretty well. Except that I needed to manage my time better. The people decided to take a trip down to KL today and so we all met up at Pavilion. It was nice to see everyone again, especially after everybody went on a hiatus. Pictures, they'll do the talking :).

We are who we were when.

May Angles Lead You In;

And I'll be wearing this silver chain around my neck,

till the day where we both hopefully turn back,

 into those two little crazy kids whom we once were :).

Numero Uno;

1. Patience.