Just A Kiss;

Because I don't know how else to tell you how much I long for you to be right here in my arms again, how I'd rush to the ends of the earth for you at any given time to save you, how I miss you more and more with every second that passes, with a pain that pierces deeper and deeper into the very core, and how much you, Lee Min Yen, are the girl of my wildest dreams, the girl that in my eyes, are as graceful as all the angels in the heaven, the girl whom I pray every night for a miracle to come true.

And this song plays in my list every single night, just because it's the first song you've ever wrote a poem about to me. I've come to learn every word that is sung, I've learned to decipher every meaning that is conveyed in this song, just hopefully wishing that I'd be able to sing it back to you with your head on my chest, and ears listening to the beat of my heart, one day. 

I'm not giving up, I'm not going anywhere, because I know when that day comes, that's the day where I'll hold closest to my heart, close my eyes, securing you in my arms and get lost in that very moment forever, with you.

And I hope that you still read this blog, because these words are the very words that I've been dying to let you know every single day.

I love you, I've said it everyday, and I'll still say it all again <3.

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Just a shot in the dark that you just might be the one,
I've been waiting for my whole life.

You Have Stolen My Heart;

Because my heart has never raced this fast before, or has my fingers ever shivered this much before.

It's because I know that whatever you're going to say in these next few days, is going to change my life forever. But before that, I hope that you'd know this; 

I've always loved you from the start, lee min yen, and I'm not trying to pressure you. I just feel that I need to say it out because I'm afraid that if I don't, it'll be the biggest regret of my life. My heart has never raced like this before, I've never been so scared of hearing what that comes out from a person's mouth before, but that just all means that I can't afford to loose you because you've been so much so, a part of me. You're the one I want to hold on too when I sleep, you're the one I want to conquer all your fears with, you're the one that I want to take care off through the sick times and the healthy times, because you're the one thing that I hold dearest too. Ever since you've came in, you've taught me how to fight for someone and not give up on that someone that you really want, come what may, because at the end of the day, it'll all be worth it, and I see that in you, you're that worth it. I've no idea why, but I do know that its only you who can make my heart race and flutter all together at the same time, because its' just you, leeminyen, you'd just have this thing in you that make everything in this world not matter so long as I get to see you smile, and hear you laugh and I wouldn't have dared to imagine what life would have been if I havent met you because I'd know one thing's for sure, that if I did not meet you, I'd be losing out on the single best thing in my life right now. But now that I do know you, I'd know that no matter what it takes, no matter how long it takes, I'm not going to let you go, because no idiot would let go of that one thing that matters the most, and you're that one thing.

I hope that you'd can see this through, I hope that you'd know because I need you take my hand and trust me, for everything we've been through, and for all the good times ahead, and for the times we'd cross over to the other side where the grass is greener and no matter what, no matter how high the mountains are or how deep the seas are, my arms will be wide open and ever ready to wrap you around tightly when you're ready. I'll always be here min, since april when I first met you and now, I'll always be here for you, love.

I love you, Rhyannae Santoso Lee Min Yen, always and fucking forever <3.

So listen.

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And you kissed me like you meant it,

I know that you meant it.

Video Games;

It's you, it's you, it's all for you, everything I do.

And I pray that tonight, somewhere deep inside you, you'd know that you're the only hand that I want to hold, you're the eyes I wanna stare and get lost in, you're the only voice I want to hear, you're the only lips I wanna kiss, and you're the only girl that I wanna whisper those three words to.

And because I've never believed in valentines day, so you'll be the first person that I'll ever want to celebrate valentines day with, and that has actually made me think of ways just to make you smile and hold you tight on this very day.

At the end of the day, it's not the exchange of 'I love you's' that matter, it not the 'I miss you's' that matter, what matters is seeing you happy, and feeling the love and warmth that I've been trying to shower you with.

Happy valentines day, Lee Min Yen, with every love hormone I have left in me, I mean this from the very bottom of my heart and soul and I hope that you'd see that you're the only one that I want to hold to closer more than ever, tonight.

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It's you, it's you, it's all for you,

everything I do.

Lego House;

Tomorrow, tomorrow.

And my hands are shaking as I'm typing this now, with the thoughts of being around you, with the thought of being able to look at you directly in the eyes, and stroking your hair backwards just to whisper to your ears how much I've been waiting for this day for the past 6 months and how much I love you that sometimes, it does hurt.

I've never stopped waiting, be it then, now, or in the future, I've never stopped waiting for you.

And I promise you darling, that I'll always be here to pick you up when you're getting down, side by side, step by step, never away from you. And out of all these things I've done, I know I'm ready to love you better than how I ever had before.

Come tuesday, and I'll try to steal your heart with a single breath, trust me, you'll see.

11 days, and tonight, we can truly say, together we are invincible.

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I'm gonna paint you by the numbers,

and frame you up my wall.

City Love;

'I love you because I know you’re always there, there to catch me when I fall, there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me, you know how I feel even when I can’t say it. You know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can’t say it and still you wait, letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you. I would give my life up to be with you, and above all never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you.'

Well, that's the voice of a heart that longs for a special someone, a voice of hope, faith, and courage.

As for me, I love you because of who you are and what I know that you will be, and most of all, its because I know you see me in a way that no other else do, and the truth is, if I could be with anyone, I'd still choose you hands down, be it now, in the next 5 years, or whether in the next life, it'd still be you.

xx.

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So tell me,

how can you dance with a devil on your back?

Count The Waves;

You're sleeping now, like how a baby sleeps after a long day, cuddling up in the corners of your bed.

Because watching you sleep is a hundred folds more beautiful than watching the moon gaze at the stars in the night and the sun rising between the curves of the highest mountains in the morning.

You make my heart blue and flutter and the same time, with that quirky smile of your and your random facial expression.

I love you, Rhyannae Santoso Lee Min Yen, over the moon and back again.

14 more days, just hang in the little darling, and I promise that we'll see this world through the way we've seen it once again.

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This is no time to be alone,

and I will never let you go.

Heart In A Postcard;

Listen, with a heart of silence and a mind of grace, just listen to the words she lay cause here's a song for the one who stole my heart and ran so far that cupid couldn't catch her.

Because I've always been two steps besides you and I will always be next to you, through it all, every single day, just because my heart skips a beat whenever I see you smile.

And I'll be here for you to shout to, whenever you're having a bad day, just so you'd feel better after that. I'll be here for you to fall back and lean on, just when you feel that you have to much weight on your shoulder. I'll be here for you to listen to the best things that happened in that day, with my ears wide open.

I'd always be here for you to run to, whether you're having a good or bad day, I'd be standing right here for you to seek solitude, because you have a good good heart that shines brighter than anyone. Because even now, I can still feel your skin, I can still feel your hands gently across mine, I can still feel your eyes watch over me as I strum, I can still see your smile and hear your hums, I can still feel your face, resting on my chest, and your hair blowing across my face.

So come on skinny love, do know that I love you, I always have, and I always will.

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Come on skinny love, what happened here.