4;

Take a bite off my heart tonight.

Somehow, you've managed to break down all the walls and steal my heart effortlessly, once again.

Sometimes I wish that life has a pause button, because these 4 days has been the best days of my life for a very long time. The experience of this familiar surge of euphoria, adrenaline, and happiness whenever you're next to me, smiling, pouting with your hands on your cheeks just so I'd melt and give in, is something embedded and engraved in my heart and soul.

It's times like these, you'd learn to live again.

I miss you the colour of your eyes, I miss the way I'd have to secretly look at you while you're talking just to catch a glimpse of you without you realizing, I miss the way you'd smile and laugh after I'd give in to you no matter how much I tried to fight it. I miss the way you'd lie down on my lap and we'd just joke about anything and everything. I miss the version of myself whenever you're around.

If I had just one chance to make things right, I would have fought for you a little longer, for you, for us. I would have showed you how much you mean to me, and held on to my promise a little longer and not let you slip away so easily; and if that chance ever crossed my path again, this time, I swear I'd hold you closer to me than ever before, and never ever ever let you go.

I've always been waiting for you, I always had and I always will be. And when you're ready, you'd know I'd always be here, with both my arms wide open, always ready to catch you when you fall.

I just miss you like hell and honestly, I'd never knew it would have hit me so hard seeing you leaving today. I'd fucking give up anything in the world to just feel that bliss once again, the laughters, the breath of your hair, the stares, the hugs, and that complete package of joy and love with you, because you mean so fucking much to me, so much more that you've ever known.

And if you ever read this, I want you know this and always always remember this, because these are the unsaid words that I've been longing to sing to you, from the bottom of my heart and soul;

It was always you, whom will have the complete keys to my heart, and I could have sworn I knew it ever since our fingers intertwined for the very first time in Chadstone.

I have always loved you, and always will love you, and only you, Lee Min Yen, till the rivers all run dry.

Always and forever, forever and always.



Listen to the lyrics, just listen.

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 Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember.

See The Sun;

Because I want to feel the slightest tinge of happiness again, with you.

It's been way too long, way way too long.

Hollow.

****************

Make take double your mouth,

scribble out the truth.

Tuesday, ____, Thursday;

'Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do'.

And it's all coming back to me tonight, I swear I could almost feel it on my skin and see it in my mind.

I know it'll be bursting at the seams when it all happens, and honestly I'm afraid. Just simply because of the fact that I still miss you so much and you'd be right in front of me.

Stay with me tonight, take my whole life through.

Somehow deep down, this heart is bursting with words that are to be said, feelings that are to felt, and longings that are to be realized, and more so, it misses you with every muscle it uses to make a beat.

There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how.

I've never stopped loving you, not even for a second or a minute, and I hope you'll see it through.

Love conquers all.

*******************

My hands are shaking,
rather waste some time with you.

Kitty Litter;

Because I want you know want thing, and I want you to always know this, only simply because it's true.

You're fucking beautiful no matter what you think, to me you are.

From the way you decide on what to wear, and how you put them together, making it look like you were born to wear them, to the way you tie your hair, because despite you saying that you're always worried that you wont look good, well let me tell you this;

It was because of this, well majorly, the way you dress and the way you carry yourself that made my knees weak when I first saw you.

And the thing is, most of the times, you dress up way beyond what I would expect to see in a girl, and you still wouldn't know.

So, stop doubting yourself, because I can see that you're beautiful not only on the inside, but on the outside as well, and it's something I know you've never had a problem keeping up with.

I just thought you needed to know.

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Think of me, in the depths of your despair.

Blue Heartache;

Who would have knew that one smile, one look, and one night was all it took for a girl to steal a boys heart, and keep it with her.

Who would have knew that I'm that boy, and the very same boy who's still 2 steps behind you, to catch you when you fall.

And you're that girl who stole my heart, something that I don't allow to happen easily. But you did, effortlessly, you just did.

I love you, always have, always will.

'Skylar' and "Lucas', remember these names?

*************

Because to hold you,

is to write love on your arms.

Paper Knives;

'At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes - all you need is one.'

And this mind constantly thinks of you, where you are, what are you doing, and how are you. You still run through my veins, from head to toe.

I still love you, the very same way when I first told you that night, that night where I promised that I'll be here through it all.

*************

Let love bleed red.

Kau Terindah;

Facades darling, facades.

If you could only see this through, if only.

Fingers crossed, hearts knitted.

I still care, you know I'd always do, and no matter how much I try, you'd always be the only one who has the key to this heart.

***************

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.

Big In Japan;

Because there will always be that only girl, that will hold a boy's heart like no other in his life.

 

Well, for me it's waking up beside you, to watch the sunrise on your face, to know that I can say I love you, in any given time or place.

 

Listen to these words I lay because I'd keep all my promises, be us against the world.

And you know it'd always be you who can decipher my heart like no other.

**************

I'm here right now, I'm ready.

Sunrise, Sunset;

It hurts, it fucking hurts.

And it's a version of pain I've never felt before.

*************

Stand on the steps with my heart in my hand.

I'll;

Be your

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Forever muse.

Stay;

And because I have this fear that you'd forget me.

Please dont, because we both know that I'm not that strong.

So please please come a little closer, just a little closer then maybe you can hear these screaming from my heart.

I'd be here for you through it all, step by step, heart to heart, I promise you this.

I miss you more than ever tonight. I miss you, I miss you.

**************

You say how long, forever.

Lasso;

And it all just hit me tonight.

You face, your eyes, your voice, your hands, your smile, flows from the heart to the soul, and back again.

Every picture, every moment spent, every laughter you make, still rings in my head constantly every single day. The first thing I wake up, the last thing before I sleep.

I can still feel you in my bones.

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In your eyes, I'd like to stay.

Unchained Melody;

Its you, always has been you, and always will be you.

Because you still give me the jitters whenever we talk and I don't think anyone can sweep me off my feet as smoothly and as effortlessly as you do.

I know your kiss and you know mine.

***************

When there's no where else to run, 
is there room for one more song.

Automatic Eyes;

Hush hush, you colour my eyes red.

And I'll remember every single moment spend with you here in melbourne when I board that plane in a few hours.

I'll remember them because having you was the only best thing this year, and it's the only thing that I've never regretted.

Come back, back to me where the mountains meet the sea.

Just so you know, I still care, I'd still pluck the stars for you.

***************

They move forward and my heart died.

Houdini;

I wish you were here to hear me out, hold my hand and tell me that everything's going to be okay like you used to because you always know how to steer me back in the right direction. 

I'm so tired off all this judgmental bashing I've been getting for the past 2 weeks.

I need your presence, I need a hand to hold, I just need you.

I miss you so fucking much, I'm sorry.

Where are you now?

*******************

Dreamers dream of dreams,
that will always only be dreams.

White Dove;

At the end of the day, all I really want for you is to be happy and live your dreams. But if I ever get to have the chance to be that happiness again, let me know, just do.

Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones.

It's you, and always will be you, don't ever doubt that for a second.

I'm sorry, I just miss you and your presence, like mad.

*************

A falling star fell from your heart,

and landed in my arms.

Love, Sex, Magic;

It's still you, and all these wisps of me that you have.

And it still amazes me till this day, how with just one glance, you somehow managed to have the most wholesome grip of my heart. Every angle, every detail, every muscle you've grasped so tightly.

I'll never, and have never forgotten that day when everything seemed like it was falling into the right places. Just the whole process from the day we met, we introduced, to the day, we lied in each others arms while talking about how we fell for each other.

And I hope that somehow someway, you still remember it too.

 

 This was that magical place where everything happened. This was the place that made me let my guard down, smiling to every word you said inside.

'Eh, I also have a tattoo, it's called love, sex, magic'.

I still miss you, I love you, and you still mean so much more to me than you can ever imagine.

***********************

There was yellow diamonds in the sky,

and we found love in a hopeless place.

New York City Cops;

And who would have thought typing this would be so hard, nobody knew.

But nonetheless, Joyeux anniversaire, ma'am

I'm glad that you've been having a blast, because I know that you've been waiting for this day ever since the day I first saw you.

I wish that you'd be blessed with an abundance of happiness, love, health, and wisdom and I can only wish that next year will be your year.

Fuck this 10000 miles, because I would have tried to make you feel like a queen tonight.

18 years, 18 ways to see the world.
.

Happy 18th Birthday, Rhyannae Santoso Lee Min Yen :) <3.

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Last year's wishes, this year's apologies.

Dead Hearts;

Just because I still miss you and still love you, and this heart still aches with every reminiscence and every hope built in it.

Always  and will be here, always remember, always.

I hope that you've had a hell of a time this weekend, because you deserve it. You've been nothing but wonderful and plus you're only 17 once right?

Oh well, surprises surprises.

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They have lights inside their eyes.

Monster Hospital;

Because I still wish that I'm next to you, where we'll lay our heads on the green green grass, with our hands intertwined, and gazing into the starry night when the clock strikes 12 on the 5th of december;

And that's when I'll look into your eyes and whisper those two words that will crown you queen of the day.

I still want to be your last, first kiss.

**************

Even heroes have the right to bleed.

Forever;

My heart is yours, from that very first time i wrapped my arms around you.

******************

Sing us a song, and we'll sing it back to you.

California Queen;

Hello there, the 17th time, it's been a while.

And the film 'Like Crazy' reminded me of everything, of you, of me, of the whole 'what-if's' and 'what would have been'.

And the best thing is, it shows that miracles do sometimes happen.

I fucking miss you.

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asdfasdfasdfiloveyouasd1234ladfjdsfab.

Crave You;

And with every crisp sounding breath that I take, your presence still lingers here.

I know I've said this a thousand times and thousands of minutes of passed since that day, but this heart is still in its silver cage.

I'm still in awe, in awe of you.

Always remember sweetheart, bitterheart, that mountains can never tear you apart.

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Do you remember the old times,

those were the only times, the only times.

Casey's Song;

And because despite this long, every glance within these four walls still reminds me of you. The way your head would rest on my chest every night. the way we'd whisper 'I love you' with our eyes closed every morning, and the way you sit leaning on me while watching a movie.

Listen to the details of the song closely. The way its melody sound, the way the first verse is sung, the words thats are being used as its lyrics, because it's every single thing that I've been trying to scream out to you.

I'll always know that you're worth it.

Come closer, and listen to the words I lay.

*****************

Dark blue, dark blue,

have you ever been alone in a quiet room.

Babydoll;

And I'm lonely, and I'm tired, and I'm missing you again.

Once again.

There is beauty in the breakdown.

***********

Be my little blue valentine.

Rootless Tree;

I'm afraid of changing, cause I've built my life around you.

So sing along for me, baby.

****************

Let's cause a scene,

 like lovers do on silver screens.

Keep;

The

Faith.

I've just crossed the line, from fashion to crime.

But you'd still be beautiful then, with your beautiful heart.

I need you more than ever, tonight.

***************

Cause it feels likes stealing hearts,

calling your name from the crowd.

Little Subway Queen;

And if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me.

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be.

Just come back to the place that we meet.

And you'll see me waiting for you, on the corner of the street.

Because I still remember that night where we sat on the bench, near flinders street station.

I'm not moving, I'm not going anywhere.

***************

Ell, ai, licky, cee, kay, licky why,

Ell, licky, ai, cee, licky, kay, why.

Ghostbird;

And somehow, Ele leaving today remembered me of I felt when I send you off to the airport last semester. The emptiness, the hollowness.

The thought of having to go through a whole weekend alone is going to haunt me more than ever.

Depictions of your face, those memories we made, and your little laughter will all flow through my mind, as it already has been every single day since I last saw you. I really don't know how else to let you know how much I'm dying to feel that inch closer to you.

I miss you so fucking much and I hope you that you can feel it too, somewhere somehow. Not even the most sophisticated of words can describe this impending pulse that constantly beats with my heart.

Where were you when we were getting high?

I still love you, lee min yen and I would still give up the world just to rewind time and have you right here, right now.

Grab my last request, just let me hold you, just yet.

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Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry.

Cigarette Smoking;

My ears are always open for you, if you ever need to let anything out, you know that.

Because I still want to know whats going on in your life.

I miss you.

****************

And when you bleed,

you're dead, and dead indeed.

Fire Eye'd Boy;

Come back to me, it's almost easy.

It still hurts.

And I'm saying this all through the top of my sweet sweet lungs.

****************

What must we do to restore, our innocence.

Earth To Bella;

And sometimes I wonder, if I had asked you to be the one thing that matters the most to me officially, would you have fought for this a little longer.

If only you'd stayed to watch, if only.

I love you.

**********************

Light a fire, a flame to my heart.

Dancing In The Dark;

'Can't promise that things wont be broken, but I swear that I will never leave.'

And everytime this comes on, its reminds me of all the nights I made that promise to you, to be right there for you no matter what, no matter when. I'm still keeping to that promise.

Your forever is all that I need.

And I need it now more than ever, so please please stay.


*******************

I want your leather studded kiss in the sand.

Summer Hair = Forever Young;

This one's for all the lost souls, whom once believed in love.

Hang in there darling, because happy endings do come true.

I'm keeping my faith next to me, right here next to me, because I know that this is all worth it.

Close your eyes, let's escape this town for a little while.

***************

Bite my heart, and my liver turns to dust.

Innocent Bones;

And it all struck me after watching 'The Last Song' just now. Every detail, every event, feels as if we've all had them before.

'Love is fragile. And we're not always the best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can, and hope that this fragile thing survives against all odds'.

I'm still hoping, despite everything, I still am.

Always, no matter what, always.

***************

A penny for your thoughts, a quarter for your heart.

Glenbrook Ave;

I miss you, Minsscreamsjaarfcukin'vis.

I don't think I've ever had this longing for someone this long before. You're the first, and you're definitely here to stay.

If only you'd knew the lengths I'd go to, just to make things right.

Sometimes I wonder if you ever do read these posts, because I hope you do.

*******************

So kiss me and smile for me.

Heart Song;

Today's the first time, in a long time that they've overflowed.

Just so you know, I still have hope in this, very much so.

I'll be ready if you ever are ready again, I need you to see this.

Berselimut di tengah dingin dunia, berselimut dengan diyayang, dengan anda.





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I better find your loving,
I better find your heart.

Valium Skies;

Whatever you said tonight, every word and letter, pierced through these flowing vessels of the human heart.

Of stayovers and lovers, what stings more than this.

I'd only wish we had more time in melbourne together from the very start, because we could have so much more, more than we've could have imagined.

I love you, and I pray that there's still a part of you that may still do too.


*************************

Send my regards to soul and romance,
they've always did the best they could.

Save The World;

You are the girl that I still love, that I always have loved, and I always will love. This is what you are to me.

There are many things that I would like to say to you, its just that I can't mouth it out aloud.


*****************

Who's going to save the world tonight?

How To Rape A Country;

And my eyes constantly shift to my left, to the two seats that we used to once sit in the library last semester during exam prep.

Images and thoughts surrounds my mind, the way you dressed, the way we laughed, the way I slept halfway through while studying and you waking me up.

It all felt so surreal, the recurring nostalgia, I could feel it all under my skin.

I miss you; I've never stopped, and I hope you're doing fine.



**********************

And my love, she's still renowned.

100;

And when I first met you, I'd never thought that I'd fall this deep and rock hard for you.

I guess I was wrong. I know I've said this a million times but I still love you with every breath, with every thought, with every memory of us that runs through my head.

I just want to feel you whole again, and for that, I need you here next to me, even if its just for a milli-second.

Help me, help you.


***********************

The stars lay down to kiss you, I lie awake and miss you.

Songbird;

Cheer up darling, don't drown yourself in wandering thoughts.

Smile, and the world will smile back at you. It hurts to see that you being down.

Be strong, you're not alone, you never will be.

***********************

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want.

We Suck Young Blood;

I still believe in all the things that we could be and I hope that deep down in you, theres a part that feels the same way too.

I miss your ginger hair, and the way you like to dress.

I'm sorry baby, you're the sun and moon to me.



Don't go.


***********************

Why don't you come on over, valerie?

November Rain;

Just know all along that you're the one who still has a hold off my heart.

We were really happy back then, weren't we? I know I was, those were the days I'd fight with all my soul just to keep it running for one more second/get them back, every bit of it.

Preserve, maintain, love.



***************************

You're like a rocket on my mind, ready to define.

505;

Because every time it happens, it still feels like its the first time.

The rawness; the vulnerability, it's all too familiar. It's funny how the more it happens, as painful as it may be, the more you want it in you because you know that all this just means one thing, that everything is worth it.

I just guess my heart has never longed for someone in such a way ever, and you're the first one.

And its all hitting on me tonight. I miss you, I miss you being here, lee min yen, more than you ever know, from the way we'd fall into each other's arms while smoking in the garage, to those little forehead kisses every night. I still remember all the promises we made.

I just hope you'd know.

Faith.



****************************

You're so much more than just a vision trip.

Bury Your Head;

Here I go, scream my lungs out, trying to let you know,

You're the only one.



***********************

Arr-emm-ehhs.

Revelry;

This time 7 months ago, you were right here, whispering words of comfort, telling me that everything's going to be alright, that I'll ace that paper in the morning.

7 months later, I'd give everything to go back then again.

I wish you were here.



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With the fire in my bones, and the sweet taste of kerosine.

On Bended Knees;

I'm sorry for how I've talked to you, how I've acted towards you and you shouldnt have to feel this way in the first place.


I don't know what went wrong with my head, I just don't. I'm not like that, I swear I'm not.

I'm not going to do it anymore, no more anger, no more frustration, this is my oath.

And this time I mean it, because if I were to go behind my words again, I shouldn't be born man. A man doesn't treat a woman like that.

I'm sorry, I really am, from the bottom of my heart and soul, with my fingers layed and my knees on the ground.

I'm just afraid of losing you.



***********************

All my life, I pray for someone like you.

Cheers Darlin;

Every single night of every single day.

It reminds me of everything, the good and the bad, and how much I wish you'd still be the first thing my eyes will see when they open.

I've never forgotten, I never will.

We all have choices, I guess I know what's mine.



**********************

You don't have to go, we could wait for the fireworks.

Eleanor Rigby;

The longing, the holding, the missing, it still lingers in every bone.

I'm going to keep this simple tonight, no catch phrases, no lyrical references, just plain raw cocaine truth.

I love you and I miss you like hell,
No matter how far, how long, how hard.

Forever and fucking always, promise.



**************************

Sweep me back off my feet, the night when we first met.

Your Lullaby;

I've never heard a laughter that vibrates down my veins every time I hear it, but yours.

Would it be okay, if I took your breath away?

You had me at hello, and I've never forgotten that moment.

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You are red, violent red.

Bulletproof Cupid;

You're are the only face, I'll ever know.

Heart. Eyes. Voice. Hands.

Gua masih percaya, takkan pudar, takkan hilang.

If you ever feel like the world's against you, always remember, that there'll always be that one boy who'll be holding you back up, no matter what.



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Let's go to the park,
I want to kiss you underneath the stars.

So Long, Sweet Summer;

It just came all on me tonight, I miss you like hell.

You're not fucked up, you never are and never was. Don't think of yourself that way, because I know you're beautiful, inside and outside.

I miss you, and everything we had.


*************************

I'll bleed my heart out to show.

From The Stars;

It'll be you, it'll always be you who'll have the key to this heart.

Save me.



*********************

Set the fire to the third bar.

Black Heart Inertia;

You're the one I still keep closest.

I still want to take those roller coaster rides, giant drop, and tower of terror rides with you. because frankly, it's not about those rides; it's about going through my darkest fears, every moment of it with you.

Remember, we've still got a world to conquer.

I love you, I still do,

And it's coming from the deepest of depths in my heart, where only you, have touched it.

*****************************

You're the fury, at the back of my head.

Pipe Dreams;

110 days, these were the best days of my life.

Because honestly, I'd give up anything to go through it again with you, the good and the bad. Because I can be vulnerable, because I can pour my heart out, and simply because you'll be here, right here.

The perfect ones never crossed my mind, because there was nothing in there,

but ... you.

Count the waves.

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Use me as you will, pull my strings just for a thrill.

Micro Cuts;

With our hands clasp so tight, I'll follow you into the dark.

Its these littlest things that'll take me there, because there's more to this. I know, and I hope that somewhere somehow, you'll know this too.

I just wish that you were here, I fucking do.

Forever and always, always and forever.



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Publish Post

I want a bulletproof heart.

16;

Faith.

Hope.

And every single thing that haunts me of you.

My arms will be open, it always will be. Keep this in mind, always know this.



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You said hello, inside I'm screaming I love you.

Lucas And Hayley;

Someone once told that this is a better place, everything's better, everything's safe.

Truth be told, I found this all in just one place,

You.

Someday, just someday.




***********************

With you right here, I'm a rocketeer.

Three Cheers;

There so many times that I have to say, I could have better, stronger for you and me.


You still have all of my h _ _ _ t.


*********************

Imissyou.

Postcards And Polaroids;

There's so many things left to say, about that end of summer that I'll never forget.

Every year that goes by, a year we'll grow older we aew, but I know that we'd be beautiful again someday.

You still have all of my heart, every inch, every muscle, every beat to it.

I love you.



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These hands are shaking cold, your hands are mine to hold.

Radio Girl;

Today's the 13th time that I'm dreaming of you whenever I sleep.

Yes, I keep track, almost everyone single one of them, because that's the only place where I get to see you and in that world, everything's just the way I imagined it to be.

I'm sorry, I never knew that I would have fallen this rock deep for you.

I've not given up, I'm still waiting for the bend.



*********************

I miss the lips that made me fly.

Hear You Me;

Where are you now? I'm writing you a symphony of sound

Because tonight, I'm missing you like hell.

Your eyes, your face, your smile, your giggles, your hands, your heart.

I'll always be here to catch you when you fall, and to hold you when you rise, and I always always will.



*************************

A thousand nights, a thousand suns.

Beauty In The Breakdown;

'I remember the first day I saw you. I remember the first day we spoke. I remember the night you held me close in your arms as we danced. But it was the times you just looked at me. Then I knew you would always be in my heart and nothing could ever change that, even if I’m not in yours.' (Eletheowl.tumblr.com)


Truth be told, it still feels very surreal whenever I lie on my bed while watching videos. I'd gaze in to the empty space, wishing that you'd come through my door.

I'd do anything to go back to that night and press the pause button, just so that, that very second will feel like forever, even if it means getting hurt all over again because at least I know, there'll be that one phase where we'll feel like we own the world.

I love you lee min yen, till the rivers run dry.


***********************

Your arms like towers, tower over me.

Paper Dreams, Honey;

And someday, maybe just someday, I'll still be here waiting to hold you close.

I want to feel normal again.

This heart aches with every single beat it makes, because we could have been so much better.



***************************

They say that love is forever, your forever is all that I need.

Out Of Sight, Out Of Mind;

I miss you, and I hope you'd feel the same too.

*************************

Stay for a while, let me show you what dreams are made off.

A Drop In The Ocean;

If you're still reading this, somehow, whenever;

I still love you the way I did when I first put my arms around you in my room.

Just thought you should know.

'Do you ever think that maybe, people are wrong when they say “everything happens for a reason” or “everything will work out in the end”? Because I do. I think maybe, just maybe somewhere along the way, something happened. Someone came in the picture and messed something up. They messed with fate. That maybe you’re the one really supposed to be with him, but she came and fate changed its way. Maybe in the end, we get stuck with second best. Because I know the way I feel and I know I would never feel this way about anyone else in my life, so whoever comes in my life after you, they’re going to be second best.


But then again, nobody would wanna settle for second best would they?

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And I'll always be there, just you try and stop me.

Every Inch, Every Step;

'And when I first met you I never would have imagined that I would have such strong feelings for you I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name
when I first met you I never thought that I would love you.'

'One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t.'


In this case, it's the boy.


Word.



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Would you come in, and just stay a while baby.

Don't You Shiver;

It hurts to see how we started off as such a fairytale pace, and to see where we are now. It hurts because deep down inside me, I still love you no matter what has happened, and I hope you'll see this too.

I may plan to say things that may hurt, things that may sound mean, but at the end of the day, I'll end up wanting to tell you how much I miss you and how much this means to me.

I'll be counting the days when things would get better, because really, that's all I have left now.


We all just have to have a little faith sometimes.

Where were you when we were getting high.

Where Are You Now;

If you could only see, if you could only see this through with me.

Takemyhandandwe'llbeofftoneverneverland.

Myxo Xyloto;

Because I need you here, so that I'll always know which way to turn.








This is what keeps me going through the day. It is the thought that fills my mind whenever I look at this, that I'm not alone, that I have you right here with me :). It's this that makes me wanna be a better man everyday. Who would have known that one smile can really take a boy's breath away.



I'm sorry, I just miss you like hell baby, I really do, and the longing to feel you next to me is eating me up, every minute of every day. I just hope that you know.


I love you, Lee Min Yen <3.



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Cause sometimes, your dreams and fate will collide.

RSLMY;

I just hope that you know that come rain or shine, I love you with every beat of my heart and I'm here to stay, Rhyannae Santoso Lee Min Yen. You've make me feel ecstatic, a kind of joy, comfort, and peace that can never be found through any other. Yes, this is how big of an impact you've made in my heart :).

I've never been so sure about something throughout my 20 years on earth, in all honesty. I'm the kind who doubts in things from time to time, but theres this magical thing in you that assures me in a way in which I myself never thought I would come across. I love talking to you, because of silly little random things you say sometimes that just would lighten my day up. And its when you call me 'baby' that my heart feels so light, it feels so damn surreal. But don't get me wrong, I love those times when its just the both of us, keeping quiet over the phone or Skype sometimes, because just knowing that I have you is enough to make me happy. Theres never been a day where I don't long to just curl up in your arms, to just brush your hair and look you in the eye and mutter those three words that I know, has changed my life in a more positive light.

I also want you to know that I want to be more than just your boyfriend. I want to be more than that. I want to be not just the boy who showers you with love, but also the one whom gives you that sense of security to know that you can blab at me with almost anything. Be it random stuff to what you ate today, to the littlest thought that's creeping in your mind because these are music to my ears, and I know, it'll make you feel so much better. And it's gives me peace to know that I have just one more day with you.

So baby girl, don't feel down, don't doubt, and fear not. Take my hand, hold me close, take this step with me, and we'll make it through just simply because we've got something that every couple would die for;

Faith, Love, Trust.

And I know that it's in you baby, because you're bold, you're graceful and most of all, you have this kinda loving heart that every boy would kill for, so just trust in yourself, trust in me, trust in

Us.

I can definitely say that you've made my life worthwhile.

*I'm leaving this space for our next picture together :D*

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P/S : I hope that this would make you feel better when you've read it. I hope that it would have at least take your mind off things for at least a good 5 minutes and make you smile :).

And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles,
Yes you make my life worthwhile,
So I told you with a smile,
It's all about you

A Little Bird Once Told Me That This Will Make You Smile;

Hands Down;

Babygirl, I'm not the best when it comes to words, and especially writing for someone whom I love so fucking much, just makes me even more panicky, making my hands shiver like a baby, making my brain all tangled up with which words to use :(. But I hope what I'm going to say will at least, blow your breathe away, one way or another :).

Rhyannae Santoso Lee, I want you to always know these few things in your heart and soul, no matter what, no matter when;

1. I'll always remember that day when we first introduced ourselves to each other at my porch.That was the day that I knew that you were someone beautiful, I just had that special vibe, tickling through my senses. And ever since that day, I thank God for allowing someone special into my life, and I've never looked back or regretted knowing you, because with you around here, things has never gotten any better :).

2. I love you the way you are, the way your fingers fit perfectly between mine, the way you look me in the eye, the way you would wrap me around with those warm arms of yours darling, the way you would cook for me at night, no matter how tired you are in the middle of the night, just to make sure I wont be hungry, the way we would stay up all night just to watch crime watch, the way you fall asleep with your head laying on my chest, and the way you mutter those three most beautiful words ever, while looking into my eyes.

3. I want you to know, that no matter what happens, I'll always be here, two steps behind you just to catch you whenever you fall. I'll be here to cheer you up whenever the darkest of clouds surrounds your day. I'll be here to lend you an ear whenever your mind are clouded with doubts, and I'll always be here to shower you with the love and care that I can ever summon up through every muscle of my heart. So be rest assured, because how high the tides are, no matter how strong the wind blows, I'm be here, rock solid :).

It'll always be you, no matter what, no matter when; I love you lee min yen, my heart is always at your service <3. Listen to this, and hopefully you'll feel

'We'll write a song, we'll make this last forever'.

Just this, 0.02 seconds;

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I HOPE YOUR TUMMY FEELS BETTER :(

GOODNIGHT,

The clock is now 2:54AM here in sg and 4:54AM over in oz. It is time to say goodnight again. Yet, my day wouldn't certainly be over for I have something to do; I just couldn't sleep without saying I love you.

You should sleep now and stop youtub-ing Baby, because I know you're keeping yourself occupied just so you can stay up until I fall asleep, ensuring that I will not feel so alone. Soooooooo, close your eyes now and go to sleep, for the angel and stars are there for you to keep and if there are worries, please don't go all emotional as I am just a beep away. Wait no, not only that, just shout my name and I'll be awake (: I love whoever created Skype hahhahaha.

Oh, and please get well soon. See, thats why you should go and catch your forty winks RIGHT NAOWWW.

GOODNIGHT TO YOU, LOML <3

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P.S: If you wanna know how much I love you, count the waves.

OCEAN TROUTTTTT HEHEHE;

Bi, I feel like shit :( I ate 2 packets of ocean trout and I think I smell damn salmon-ish :( My water chestnut drink next to me tasted like coke+ water minus the gas evaporating, if you get what I mean :/

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You are now listening/watching to what video sia, sounds damn ewwwwwwwwww. Okay I cannot tank alreadyyy :( Gonna tell you that I have finished "replying emails" now and then close my eyes for a bit before I go shower cos I wanna get outta cold hard floorrr.

<3<3<3

P.S : This feels like my blog know, I think you should start updating it and stop me from invading it. Hahaha.

P.S , ILOVEYOU.

Dearest JULIAN LOH WEN-ZHI,

This was our very first conversation.

Baby, I'm sorry okay, I just feel like teasing you now. Hahaha. And I apologise for the blurry screen shots :( The thought of this is just so last minute, thats whyyyyyy. However, on second thought, the whole point is to make you feel embarrassed :)

Whatever it is, I know you still love me :D

Anyway, my purpose of writing you this blogpost is to try and express how much I fucking love you since we're so far away, like 3196958034 miles :( Here is a small dedication to you.

Lying here with you so close to me,

it's hard to fight this feelings when it feels so hard to breathe.

Caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile.

I've never opened up to anyone,

so hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms.

We don't need to rush this, let's just take this slow

I know that if we give this a little time, it will only bring us closer

to the love we wanna find.

It's never felt so real for me, no it's never felt so right.

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight,

just a touch in the fire burning so bright,

and I don't wanna mess this thing up, I don't wanna

push too far.

Just a shot in the dark that you just might, be the one

i've been waiting for my whole life, so baby i'm alright,

with just a kiss Goodnight. But no, I don't wanna say goodnight.

I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams tonight.

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I LOVE YOU ALL THE WAY TO THE MOON AND BACK AGAIN, BABYKINSMUNCHKINSLOVEKINSHONEYKINSAPPLEKINSJUJUKINS,

-K I gtg now, my runny nose is really starting to kill me :(