4;

Take a bite off my heart tonight.

Somehow, you've managed to break down all the walls and steal my heart effortlessly, once again.

Sometimes I wish that life has a pause button, because these 4 days has been the best days of my life for a very long time. The experience of this familiar surge of euphoria, adrenaline, and happiness whenever you're next to me, smiling, pouting with your hands on your cheeks just so I'd melt and give in, is something embedded and engraved in my heart and soul.

It's times like these, you'd learn to live again.

I miss you the colour of your eyes, I miss the way I'd have to secretly look at you while you're talking just to catch a glimpse of you without you realizing, I miss the way you'd smile and laugh after I'd give in to you no matter how much I tried to fight it. I miss the way you'd lie down on my lap and we'd just joke about anything and everything. I miss the version of myself whenever you're around.

If I had just one chance to make things right, I would have fought for you a little longer, for you, for us. I would have showed you how much you mean to me, and held on to my promise a little longer and not let you slip away so easily; and if that chance ever crossed my path again, this time, I swear I'd hold you closer to me than ever before, and never ever ever let you go.

I've always been waiting for you, I always had and I always will be. And when you're ready, you'd know I'd always be here, with both my arms wide open, always ready to catch you when you fall.

I just miss you like hell and honestly, I'd never knew it would have hit me so hard seeing you leaving today. I'd fucking give up anything in the world to just feel that bliss once again, the laughters, the breath of your hair, the stares, the hugs, and that complete package of joy and love with you, because you mean so fucking much to me, so much more that you've ever known.

And if you ever read this, I want you know this and always always remember this, because these are the unsaid words that I've been longing to sing to you, from the bottom of my heart and soul;

It was always you, whom will have the complete keys to my heart, and I could have sworn I knew it ever since our fingers intertwined for the very first time in Chadstone.

I have always loved you, and always will love you, and only you, Lee Min Yen, till the rivers all run dry.

Always and forever, forever and always.



Listen to the lyrics, just listen.

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 Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember.

See The Sun;

Because I want to feel the slightest tinge of happiness again, with you.

It's been way too long, way way too long.

Hollow.

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Make take double your mouth,

scribble out the truth.

Tuesday, ____, Thursday;

'Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do'.

And it's all coming back to me tonight, I swear I could almost feel it on my skin and see it in my mind.

I know it'll be bursting at the seams when it all happens, and honestly I'm afraid. Just simply because of the fact that I still miss you so much and you'd be right in front of me.

Stay with me tonight, take my whole life through.

Somehow deep down, this heart is bursting with words that are to be said, feelings that are to felt, and longings that are to be realized, and more so, it misses you with every muscle it uses to make a beat.

There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how.

I've never stopped loving you, not even for a second or a minute, and I hope you'll see it through.

Love conquers all.

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My hands are shaking,
rather waste some time with you.

Kitty Litter;

Because I want you know want thing, and I want you to always know this, only simply because it's true.

You're fucking beautiful no matter what you think, to me you are.

From the way you decide on what to wear, and how you put them together, making it look like you were born to wear them, to the way you tie your hair, because despite you saying that you're always worried that you wont look good, well let me tell you this;

It was because of this, well majorly, the way you dress and the way you carry yourself that made my knees weak when I first saw you.

And the thing is, most of the times, you dress up way beyond what I would expect to see in a girl, and you still wouldn't know.

So, stop doubting yourself, because I can see that you're beautiful not only on the inside, but on the outside as well, and it's something I know you've never had a problem keeping up with.

I just thought you needed to know.

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Think of me, in the depths of your despair.

Blue Heartache;

Who would have knew that one smile, one look, and one night was all it took for a girl to steal a boys heart, and keep it with her.

Who would have knew that I'm that boy, and the very same boy who's still 2 steps behind you, to catch you when you fall.

And you're that girl who stole my heart, something that I don't allow to happen easily. But you did, effortlessly, you just did.

I love you, always have, always will.

'Skylar' and "Lucas', remember these names?

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Because to hold you,

is to write love on your arms.

Paper Knives;

'At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes - all you need is one.'

And this mind constantly thinks of you, where you are, what are you doing, and how are you. You still run through my veins, from head to toe.

I still love you, the very same way when I first told you that night, that night where I promised that I'll be here through it all.

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Let love bleed red.

Kau Terindah;

Facades darling, facades.

If you could only see this through, if only.

Fingers crossed, hearts knitted.

I still care, you know I'd always do, and no matter how much I try, you'd always be the only one who has the key to this heart.

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I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.

Big In Japan;

Because there will always be that only girl, that will hold a boy's heart like no other in his life.

 

Well, for me it's waking up beside you, to watch the sunrise on your face, to know that I can say I love you, in any given time or place.

 

Listen to these words I lay because I'd keep all my promises, be us against the world.

And you know it'd always be you who can decipher my heart like no other.

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I'm here right now, I'm ready.

Sunrise, Sunset;

It hurts, it fucking hurts.

And it's a version of pain I've never felt before.

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Stand on the steps with my heart in my hand.

I'll;

Be your

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Forever muse.

Stay;

And because I have this fear that you'd forget me.

Please dont, because we both know that I'm not that strong.

So please please come a little closer, just a little closer then maybe you can hear these screaming from my heart.

I'd be here for you through it all, step by step, heart to heart, I promise you this.

I miss you more than ever tonight. I miss you, I miss you.

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You say how long, forever.

Lasso;

And it all just hit me tonight.

You face, your eyes, your voice, your hands, your smile, flows from the heart to the soul, and back again.

Every picture, every moment spent, every laughter you make, still rings in my head constantly every single day. The first thing I wake up, the last thing before I sleep.

I can still feel you in my bones.

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In your eyes, I'd like to stay.

Unchained Melody;

Its you, always has been you, and always will be you.

Because you still give me the jitters whenever we talk and I don't think anyone can sweep me off my feet as smoothly and as effortlessly as you do.

I know your kiss and you know mine.

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When there's no where else to run, 
is there room for one more song.

Automatic Eyes;

Hush hush, you colour my eyes red.

And I'll remember every single moment spend with you here in melbourne when I board that plane in a few hours.

I'll remember them because having you was the only best thing this year, and it's the only thing that I've never regretted.

Come back, back to me where the mountains meet the sea.

Just so you know, I still care, I'd still pluck the stars for you.

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They move forward and my heart died.

Houdini;

I wish you were here to hear me out, hold my hand and tell me that everything's going to be okay like you used to because you always know how to steer me back in the right direction. 

I'm so tired off all this judgmental bashing I've been getting for the past 2 weeks.

I need your presence, I need a hand to hold, I just need you.

I miss you so fucking much, I'm sorry.

Where are you now?

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Dreamers dream of dreams,
that will always only be dreams.

White Dove;

At the end of the day, all I really want for you is to be happy and live your dreams. But if I ever get to have the chance to be that happiness again, let me know, just do.

Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones.

It's you, and always will be you, don't ever doubt that for a second.

I'm sorry, I just miss you and your presence, like mad.

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A falling star fell from your heart,

and landed in my arms.

Love, Sex, Magic;

It's still you, and all these wisps of me that you have.

And it still amazes me till this day, how with just one glance, you somehow managed to have the most wholesome grip of my heart. Every angle, every detail, every muscle you've grasped so tightly.

I'll never, and have never forgotten that day when everything seemed like it was falling into the right places. Just the whole process from the day we met, we introduced, to the day, we lied in each others arms while talking about how we fell for each other.

And I hope that somehow someway, you still remember it too.

 

 This was that magical place where everything happened. This was the place that made me let my guard down, smiling to every word you said inside.

'Eh, I also have a tattoo, it's called love, sex, magic'.

I still miss you, I love you, and you still mean so much more to me than you can ever imagine.

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There was yellow diamonds in the sky,

and we found love in a hopeless place.

New York City Cops;

And who would have thought typing this would be so hard, nobody knew.

But nonetheless, Joyeux anniversaire, ma'am

I'm glad that you've been having a blast, because I know that you've been waiting for this day ever since the day I first saw you.

I wish that you'd be blessed with an abundance of happiness, love, health, and wisdom and I can only wish that next year will be your year.

Fuck this 10000 miles, because I would have tried to make you feel like a queen tonight.

18 years, 18 ways to see the world.
.

Happy 18th Birthday, Rhyannae Santoso Lee Min Yen :) <3.

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Last year's wishes, this year's apologies.

Dead Hearts;

Just because I still miss you and still love you, and this heart still aches with every reminiscence and every hope built in it.

Always  and will be here, always remember, always.

I hope that you've had a hell of a time this weekend, because you deserve it. You've been nothing but wonderful and plus you're only 17 once right?

Oh well, surprises surprises.

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They have lights inside their eyes.

Monster Hospital;

Because I still wish that I'm next to you, where we'll lay our heads on the green green grass, with our hands intertwined, and gazing into the starry night when the clock strikes 12 on the 5th of december;

And that's when I'll look into your eyes and whisper those two words that will crown you queen of the day.

I still want to be your last, first kiss.

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Even heroes have the right to bleed.

Forever;

My heart is yours, from that very first time i wrapped my arms around you.

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Sing us a song, and we'll sing it back to you.