Welcome to St Tropez;

And because every time that song comes on, my mind just dissipates effortlessly back to where things were more than any other boy could ever ask for. My heart starts to float, my worries vanished in a breeze, and I'd get that same old shivers you gave me when we first met.

Then the other half comes out to play, poisoning every inch of good reminiscence left of you in me, reminding the heart that there was another part of you that comes in to play, a part so ugly that I've failed to see from the very start.

I'm sorry darling, if things are as shitty as they are now. I don't how it ever started and when is all this going to end. It's not been easy for me to just look at you in silence when you preach your stories of your day. It's certainly not easy for me to look at you with my arms folded up all to myself because truth be told, you'd know I'd still jump infront of the line just to give you a hug and tell you how much I missed you.

But life has a certain funny way of coming into terms. You wanted everything to be this way, you planned your course from the very start through your lies and schemes and you took me for granted for the things you knew that I would still do for you till this day. I'm just going to take this bullet for you, smile and give you this which is what you've always wanted and I hope that you're satisfied with everything you've achieved to this day through your lies and how every boy you see is just a toy for you to have your fun with.

This is where I'll usually type things like 'I miss you, I love you' but this time it's different. Why? Because I've already said this a million times and you'd already know how I feel. But there's also one thing, I now know that as much as I'll always love you and I'll always miss you, you'd probably never feel the same anymore and I'd just feel like a complete arsehole who was taken for granted again.

Someone had to draw the line, but I'll be coming back for you one day.

I'll always love you, always and forever.

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We took it all apart, but I'm wishing I'd stay.